Share about Gushcloud and get rewarded!
A cool site where you earn points which turn into money which turn into items!
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Sunday, May 27, 2012
It has been a while
Well, it has been awhile since I have posted. I can't believe how long though!
So I only have three half days left in school. I am excited, but they are filled with finals. Wen, I don't have to take either of the finals. That makes me happy.
I have a boyfriend and just to clear things up, I don't know how much longer we are going to last. It doesn't surprise me. I will stay with him as long as he wants me to. I am happy to be with him, I can't help but smile when I am around him!
The people I am living with, well I have been avoiding them lately just to cool off. I haven't really been in a good mood lately, and I somewhat know why. I am not completely positive. I now have a job, which is awesome, I am working at a store called H.E.B.
*Here
Everything is
Better*
Actually it is Howard E. Butt.
His wife is the founder of the company the early 1900's. I go for training on Tuesday at 2pm, after school(half days remember)
JROTC is going well. I wanted to go to summer camp but I can't anymore, and I only have it for half a year next year as well. I am going to talk to my mom and dad about taking the course that is holding my back online. The only problem is that I would have to dip into my savings and pay 155 for the course! That is a lot and it would be the same if I took it as a summer school class. I want to take it so that I will have a full year of JROTC, but I don't know if it is worth the money. I guess I will just have to wait again for the Nook and buy the class. It would be in the summer online as I mentioned and when i needed to take the final, I would have to get with the school to take it. I don't really want to take it again, but I might as well. The class is communications Applications. See I would have taken it this year, had I known in the beginning that I had to take it. See when I first moved to Texas, I had to set up my schedule for school. We picked all the classes that I needed and I asked, was there anything else that I needed, they said no, and then half way through the year, "Oh, by the way. Next year you will have to take Communication Applications."
Sorry, I got to ranting.. I have been doing that a lot lately as well and I don;t know why.
Well I will say goodbye for now.
Stay real, Stay true
So I only have three half days left in school. I am excited, but they are filled with finals. Wen, I don't have to take either of the finals. That makes me happy.
I have a boyfriend and just to clear things up, I don't know how much longer we are going to last. It doesn't surprise me. I will stay with him as long as he wants me to. I am happy to be with him, I can't help but smile when I am around him!
The people I am living with, well I have been avoiding them lately just to cool off. I haven't really been in a good mood lately, and I somewhat know why. I am not completely positive. I now have a job, which is awesome, I am working at a store called H.E.B.
*Here
Everything is
Better*
Actually it is Howard E. Butt.
His wife is the founder of the company the early 1900's. I go for training on Tuesday at 2pm, after school(half days remember)
JROTC is going well. I wanted to go to summer camp but I can't anymore, and I only have it for half a year next year as well. I am going to talk to my mom and dad about taking the course that is holding my back online. The only problem is that I would have to dip into my savings and pay 155 for the course! That is a lot and it would be the same if I took it as a summer school class. I want to take it so that I will have a full year of JROTC, but I don't know if it is worth the money. I guess I will just have to wait again for the Nook and buy the class. It would be in the summer online as I mentioned and when i needed to take the final, I would have to get with the school to take it. I don't really want to take it again, but I might as well. The class is communications Applications. See I would have taken it this year, had I known in the beginning that I had to take it. See when I first moved to Texas, I had to set up my schedule for school. We picked all the classes that I needed and I asked, was there anything else that I needed, they said no, and then half way through the year, "Oh, by the way. Next year you will have to take Communication Applications."
Sorry, I got to ranting.. I have been doing that a lot lately as well and I don;t know why.
Well I will say goodbye for now.
Stay real, Stay true
Why? (Another Poem)
Why? Why does he hate me? Why won't he talk to me? Why do I still like him? Why won't he listen? Why do I hide from him?
Why does he like me? Why does he try? Why won't he ever just admit that he will never love me? Why do I try?
Why does he sit with me? Why does he say things that aren't true?
Why do they even bother me?
Why does he like me? Why does he try? Why won't he ever just admit that he will never love me? Why do I try?
Why does he sit with me? Why does he say things that aren't true?
Why do they even bother me?
I can't do it anymore(another poem)
I can't do it anymore.
I can't hide myself.
I can't run away anymore.
I want to be perfect.
I want to make everyone happy.
I want to stay where I am but I can't.
I want those who attempt, to actually try, to see the faults.
I want my mom back.
I want to be accepted.
But I can't do it anymore.
I can't hide myself.
I can't run away anymore.
I want to be perfect.
I want to make everyone happy.
I want to stay where I am but I can't.
I want those who attempt, to actually try, to see the faults.
I want my mom back.
I want to be accepted.
But I can't do it anymore.
It is there( This is a poem I wrote)
Though you can't see it, it's there.
Though you think she is happy,
Though you think she's normal,
She's not.
She cries herself to sleep,
She holds her animals and creams.
She is angry all other times.
So what if she smiles?
It's all a play.
Though you can't see it, it's there.
Though you deny it, it happens.
Though she tries to hide it,
And believe it is gone, it always comes back.
Why fight it anymore?
Why hide it? It's useless.
No one wants a girl like her.
Why pretend?
Why try to be what I'm not?
Though you think she is happy,
Though you think she's normal,
She's not.
She cries herself to sleep,
She holds her animals and creams.
She is angry all other times.
So what if she smiles?
It's all a play.
Though you can't see it, it's there.
Though you deny it, it happens.
Though she tries to hide it,
And believe it is gone, it always comes back.
Why fight it anymore?
Why hide it? It's useless.
No one wants a girl like her.
Why pretend?
Why try to be what I'm not?
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Church
Okay, so school was good, I got a 121 on my computer science final. I am soooo happy,
on the physics final I fell asleep after it...it was funny because some random person started to rub my back before the bell rang...I was happy for it becuase I was able to get lunch befoer leaving but I did think it was really weird.
I came home and cleaned up random stuff today and then I played the wii....I ate two tacos and am waiting to go to church. OH YEAH!! tODAY IS sports day so i am looking forward to that too.....
Tomorrow is my last day of school, and then on friday we are leaving for A trip with the church, I am a little sad because America's Got Talent is coming to Austin Texas this Sat and Sun, which is when I will be back... I am going to just submitt a video adition for it becuase there is not other way! :( Sad Face....
Looking forward to being called!! I am going to be positive.
on the physics final I fell asleep after it...it was funny because some random person started to rub my back before the bell rang...I was happy for it becuase I was able to get lunch befoer leaving but I did think it was really weird.
I came home and cleaned up random stuff today and then I played the wii....I ate two tacos and am waiting to go to church. OH YEAH!! tODAY IS sports day so i am looking forward to that too.....
Tomorrow is my last day of school, and then on friday we are leaving for A trip with the church, I am a little sad because America's Got Talent is coming to Austin Texas this Sat and Sun, which is when I will be back... I am going to just submitt a video adition for it becuase there is not other way! :( Sad Face....
Looking forward to being called!! I am going to be positive.
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Great Day!!
Ok, so I went to school and I had an awesome day, I kissed Malcolm again!!! :) <3
In 6th period I was done with a lot of time left. I only got two questions wrong so I am really happy about that!!!!( JROTC)
I then was able to tickle bulldog or brandon, he is a short person in class but he is really funny....ahhahaha
he stole my feather I had and so I chased him in my boots of all shoes and I actually caught up!! I was soooo happy!!!
In 5th period, I took the test in there, it was only 60 questions and I feel really confident about that one too. I was able to come home and have three hours of being alone without anyone there!!! (SPANISH) Tomorrow I have to take 4th(Computer Science) and 3rd(Physics). This should go fairly easy. I am not completely sure about the Physics test but I am good on the computer science. I have been programming from home so that I do not get out of touch, but also to challenge myself to look it through without help so that I do not become to reliant on my teacher.
My computer science teacher is really cool. She warned us that is she gets mad, Rona, her twin sister comes out(her real name is Mona). We laughed at this because, well, it is funny!
I must say that today has been a really good day.
What I thought was really funny was when I was riding the bus home today, The boy who sits in the seat next to me, he was telling me that I won't have to waste all of that time going down the long stretch of road to his house, which is actually the end of his drive where he then proceeds to drive a car to the house. I asked why and he said that in Feb he will be legal driver, so guess what( we have the same birthdate!!! I think that is just plain akward, cool, and really just freaky,) I can't wait until I can drive, then I wont have to worry about anybody having to take me places, I could just hop into the car and go where ever.
Oh and a heads up, I am sketching an outline of a new story so be prepared y'all
Here is a link to my poems.
http://www.poemhunter.com/marsadee-flowers/
In 6th period I was done with a lot of time left. I only got two questions wrong so I am really happy about that!!!!( JROTC)
I then was able to tickle bulldog or brandon, he is a short person in class but he is really funny....ahhahaha
he stole my feather I had and so I chased him in my boots of all shoes and I actually caught up!! I was soooo happy!!!
In 5th period, I took the test in there, it was only 60 questions and I feel really confident about that one too. I was able to come home and have three hours of being alone without anyone there!!! (SPANISH) Tomorrow I have to take 4th(Computer Science) and 3rd(Physics). This should go fairly easy. I am not completely sure about the Physics test but I am good on the computer science. I have been programming from home so that I do not get out of touch, but also to challenge myself to look it through without help so that I do not become to reliant on my teacher.
My computer science teacher is really cool. She warned us that is she gets mad, Rona, her twin sister comes out(her real name is Mona). We laughed at this because, well, it is funny!
I must say that today has been a really good day.
What I thought was really funny was when I was riding the bus home today, The boy who sits in the seat next to me, he was telling me that I won't have to waste all of that time going down the long stretch of road to his house, which is actually the end of his drive where he then proceeds to drive a car to the house. I asked why and he said that in Feb he will be legal driver, so guess what( we have the same birthdate!!! I think that is just plain akward, cool, and really just freaky,) I can't wait until I can drive, then I wont have to worry about anybody having to take me places, I could just hop into the car and go where ever.
Oh and a heads up, I am sketching an outline of a new story so be prepared y'all
Here is a link to my poems.
http://www.poemhunter.com/marsadee-flowers/
Monday, January 9, 2012
Better than expected
Ok, so it was pouring rain today!!! YEAH RAIN!!!!
I got so soaked in the morning waiting for my bus that ended up staying wet until 5th period. It was fun today, I went to the library in the morning like I always do and I sat with my friend Malcolm. He walked me to my class as normal and then when he was about to leave he said how about a kiss for good luck!!!!! (We all had finals 7th period) We kissed twice and now I am really happy!!! I can't believe it,
so then I then had to got to class which I had a really good day after that, my physics homework wasn't being graded so that was good because I didn't do my best on that sadly, and then in computer class I did nothing but study for the final. I listened to music all day also which was pretty cool. Tomorrow is going to be long/short because I only have to take my 6th period and fifth period finals and then go home!!!! YEAH!!!
During sixth period I was able to learn some new things like that we might be wearing school uniforms next year and that all the freshmen will be going to Peet Jr. High, which is where my sister is at now....haha
But, again it was an overall good day, I even think I did really good on the final. I had 112 questions but I think that I did fairly well on it, I didn't rush it this time like I tend to do all my other tests which is why I always get less than 100%. :(
Again, if you have any story ideas hook my up, comment me on here and then we can send messages...
I got so soaked in the morning waiting for my bus that ended up staying wet until 5th period. It was fun today, I went to the library in the morning like I always do and I sat with my friend Malcolm. He walked me to my class as normal and then when he was about to leave he said how about a kiss for good luck!!!!! (We all had finals 7th period) We kissed twice and now I am really happy!!! I can't believe it,
so then I then had to got to class which I had a really good day after that, my physics homework wasn't being graded so that was good because I didn't do my best on that sadly, and then in computer class I did nothing but study for the final. I listened to music all day also which was pretty cool. Tomorrow is going to be long/short because I only have to take my 6th period and fifth period finals and then go home!!!! YEAH!!!
During sixth period I was able to learn some new things like that we might be wearing school uniforms next year and that all the freshmen will be going to Peet Jr. High, which is where my sister is at now....haha
But, again it was an overall good day, I even think I did really good on the final. I had 112 questions but I think that I did fairly well on it, I didn't rush it this time like I tend to do all my other tests which is why I always get less than 100%. :(
Again, if you have any story ideas hook my up, comment me on here and then we can send messages...
Sunday, January 8, 2012
Today
Today was okay. I woke up late again:) Haha, I was able to eat a sandwhich of peanut butter and banana before heading off to work. Boring.
I then listened to music all day before finally cracking down on some of my reviews. I have more of the History done, it is not really done yet but what can I do? I am not looking forward to it tomorrow, it is a full day before I have nothing but half days!!! :P I feel bad for my bros and sis, they have full days all week next week!!! :P
I watched the movie Contagious today. It was really good, I did not think that they would end it all like that... it is funny, it was all caused in China because people were destroying food supply and it all started because of the fruit bats....(KILL THE FRUIT BATS) hahaha not really. I think it is funny though, no one got sick in china until the pig ate the banana and then the pig didn't show symptoms.
Welll now I am blogging and drinking milk. I am about to program and start thinking about a story to write. I am not sure what I should write about, if anyone has any ideas, then please hit me up....
I then listened to music all day before finally cracking down on some of my reviews. I have more of the History done, it is not really done yet but what can I do? I am not looking forward to it tomorrow, it is a full day before I have nothing but half days!!! :P I feel bad for my bros and sis, they have full days all week next week!!! :P
I watched the movie Contagious today. It was really good, I did not think that they would end it all like that... it is funny, it was all caused in China because people were destroying food supply and it all started because of the fruit bats....(KILL THE FRUIT BATS) hahaha not really. I think it is funny though, no one got sick in china until the pig ate the banana and then the pig didn't show symptoms.
Welll now I am blogging and drinking milk. I am about to program and start thinking about a story to write. I am not sure what I should write about, if anyone has any ideas, then please hit me up....
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Today
So today I woke up at 3 and had to put my laptop away and my mp3 player had died. I fell asleep...wow....
After waking up again at 9 something, I turned on my laptop again and resumed studys.....ugh.....
I then had about 3 minutes to get dressed to go eat because I had been listening to some spanish videos and did not hear mom when she told everyone to get dressed......I need a shower now.
We went to eat at a burger joint which was soooooooooo good!!!! Delicioso!!
After coming home I found that I had not recieved anything from my boyfriend so I call him to tell I love him and see how he is doing, well he doesn't answer to I leave a message. He calls back sometime later and says how can you leave me a message that you love me when you never answered my calls or texts.
Long story short-I am not on good terms with him....even though he calls me, he keeps saying I will call you later after five minutes....it is seriously getting on my nerves.
I was studying as always and he called again and apologized for yelling at me, then we start arguing about how he didn't have a good day and that since I am studying I should call him when I done, well, I would have never have called him or texted him earlier if he didn't call me first. I tell him that I won't because with my luck I will forget and get wrapped up in my studying, he then says yeah well I won't have my phone starting tomorrow,....he told me just call later...I won't call...I can't take it anymore.....
After waking up again at 9 something, I turned on my laptop again and resumed studys.....ugh.....
I then had about 3 minutes to get dressed to go eat because I had been listening to some spanish videos and did not hear mom when she told everyone to get dressed......I need a shower now.
We went to eat at a burger joint which was soooooooooo good!!!! Delicioso!!
After coming home I found that I had not recieved anything from my boyfriend so I call him to tell I love him and see how he is doing, well he doesn't answer to I leave a message. He calls back sometime later and says how can you leave me a message that you love me when you never answered my calls or texts.
Long story short-I am not on good terms with him....even though he calls me, he keeps saying I will call you later after five minutes....it is seriously getting on my nerves.
I was studying as always and he called again and apologized for yelling at me, then we start arguing about how he didn't have a good day and that since I am studying I should call him when I done, well, I would have never have called him or texted him earlier if he didn't call me first. I tell him that I won't because with my luck I will forget and get wrapped up in my studying, he then says yeah well I won't have my phone starting tomorrow,....he told me just call later...I won't call...I can't take it anymore.....
Friday, January 6, 2012
Time
Wow, the time seems to just past by so fast. I have now gone from 2 SAE's to around 4-5. I am now a private in JROTC and have two ribbons and finals are next week. It is now 2012 and I can not believe it. This past year has gone by so fast that I can't remember it really ever being here at all. This year had it's ups and downs, I am now keeping a journal that I write my feelings in, I am hoping that this will help me in the long run so that I don't freak out on someone randomly because I am on the last straw and they don't know it.
Christmas was great. I got a laptop, class ring and a lot of clothes. I am really happy, they are all things that I really wanted. I really loved the class ring and dolls. Monster High All The Way Baby!!!! I have been successful in looking up a few scholarships today, I think that I might be awarded at least one of them. I have three essay's ahead of me and a few letters of recomendation too... :) I am going to hit the sack as they say and will continue to update everyone tomorrow!! Good Night Everyone!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Christmas was great. I got a laptop, class ring and a lot of clothes. I am really happy, they are all things that I really wanted. I really loved the class ring and dolls. Monster High All The Way Baby!!!! I have been successful in looking up a few scholarships today, I think that I might be awarded at least one of them. I have three essay's ahead of me and a few letters of recomendation too... :) I am going to hit the sack as they say and will continue to update everyone tomorrow!! Good Night Everyone!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)